“As much as I converse with sages and heroes, they have very little of my love and admiration. I long for rural and domestic scene, for the warbling of birds and the prattling of my children.”
–John Adams
“The deepest American dream is not the hunger for money or fame; it is the dream of settling down, in peace and freedom and cooperation, in the promised land.”
– Scott Russell Sanders
I grew up near water, in the Mohawk River valley where my ancestors, Bavarian Palatines, came to live following the disastrous European winter of 1709-1710. They traded the Rhine for the Mohawk primarily to escape persecution. Three hundred years later and only a few hundred miles away, I’m trading the shores of Lake Ontario for the banks of the Genesee. For me, this is about entering into a deeper, more formal commitment as a writer, reader, and teacher; as a pilgrim on the faith journey; and as a member of a community through my work on campus and citizenry in my town. In the fall, I begin a new career as Assistant Professor of Writing at Houghton College for the 2010-2011 academic year. We are moving to a rural part of New York known as the Southern Tier. We’ve chosen the village of Angelica, a hamlet situated along a river, not unlike my hometown.
The Southern Tier has long been home to the native people of the Iroquois Confederacy, and, geographically at least, has changed very little. It is a rugged, sometimes bleak, hill country that stretches from the Allegany Reservation south of the Finger Lakes and east to the Catskills. I’m excited for the rich natural setting we can engage as a family, for the opportunity for our kids to grow up exploring the outdoors. I did, and it shaped me as a person and a poet. (For a compelling study on the topic, read Richard Louv’s excellent Last Child in the Woods: Saving Our Children From Nature-Deficit Disorder.) We know that time spent outdoors has the power to balance the image- and communication-saturated, TV/video game/Internet/cell phone culture our children (and we) inhabit daily. Emerson tells us: “Adopt the pace of nature: her secret is patience.”
While living happily in urban settings most of my adult life, I admired people like Scott Russell Sanders, who wrote about a subject many hipper folks would dismiss out of hand: staying put–in Indiana, no less. The full title of the book is Staying Put: Making a Home in a Restless World, and in it, Sanders describes “fashioning a life that’s firmly grounded in household and community, in awareness of nature, and in contract with that source from which all things arise.” In choosing a rural setting, Sanders, Wendell Berry, and others experience what Berry has called “the grace of the world.” He writes, “When despair for the world grows in me, and I wake in the night at the least sound in fear of what my life and my children’s lives may be—I go and lie down where the wood drake rests in his beauty on the water, and the great heron feeds. I come into the peace of wild things who do not tax their lives with forethought or grief. I come into the presence of still water. And I feel above me the day-blind stars waiting with their light. For a time I rest in the grace of the world, and am free.”
New York Times columnist Verlyn Klinkenborg, who farms upstate but goes into the city weekly, writes of the ways in which the city and the country can inform and enrich one another for those who would take notice and time to deal in both. This approach works best for me, too. As I read Anna Karenina this past year, I strongly identified with Levin’s need for open spaces, his hunger for the chastening work of the outdoors (and the working out of his spiritual dilemma), as well as his discomfort with urban sophisticates and their collective superiority complex. At the same time, I sympathize with Vronsky’s desire for the great cultural centers–in his case, St. Petersburg and Moscow–where he enjoys fine cuisine, attends the theater, and experiences the range of cultural amenities a city affords (not the least of which is the company of the aristocracy). Anyone who knows me knows that I can’t go more than six months or so without at least a quick weekend in New York. Just ask the friends and cousins and cousins’ friends in Brooklyn whose couches I sleep on. Like everyone I get restless for the bright lights and the unparalleled artistic opportunities.
For me, it has never been an either/or, but always a both/and, and that’s how it will continue to be, only now I’ll choose both from a home base in the country. Like Adams, I adore “the warbling of birds and the prattling of my children.” When I’m being honest I find in myself the dream to settle down in a promised land. But, Sanders suggests, promised land does not ultimately speak of a physical place but rather a kind of spiritual calibration that helps us live in “peace and freedom and cooperation.” And yet one must be careful not to idealize a new job and a new home or even pristine nature (or for that matter, the romance of the city). One must expect—and respect—reality. As Paula D’Arcy reminds us, “Reality is God’s greatest ally.” I look forward to the realities of the Southern Tier, the village of Angelica, Houghton College, and all the people with whom I will enter into community.
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Stay tuned for Part II of this three-part reflection, in which I freak out about my course syllabi and inadequacies as a teacher, and ponder the unique issues associated with teaching at a Christian college.




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Wow, congrats! From what I know of Houghton (one visit for the writing conference in 2005) and its faculty (Lori Huth and Jack Leax esp.), you are in good company.
I like your embrace of both/and. I live downtown in a city of one million. I love Beijing and Calgary. I also love camping and wilderness — don’t get enough of that these days. We are yearning for a more nomadic where we can have our share of farm and forest and sea and skyscraper and neon. Looking forward to your future posts about this.
Thanks, Alison! I’m struggling with my feelings about all this and turned to some good reading on rural living (hence exceeding the quota of quotes). I look forward to working out what all of this will mean for us.
The people in the department are a huge reason I’m going. Although Jack has retired, I see him regularly, and am truly excited about getting to know Lori and the others better this year. Great writers, great teachers, great people. Hope you can come and do another Writing Festival down here soon.
I’ve used Google Earth to see the lay of the land from the sky for the Southern Tier and Angelica. I notice that it is right off route 17 AKA interstate 86, which heads east on the way to NYC. The image of country life with a straight shot to the city already had me thinking that this was part of the attraction. It is good to know the fast road to what you know you will need is not far away.
The dance from the city to the country and back, from solitude to participation is an inner reality that is informed and informs our outer reality.
If you are a young family, the draw of the country, especially next to rivers, note the Genesee runs through Angelica (great name) to the city you are moving from (more or less).
Reading of what it happening to the earth in Bill McKibben’s Eaarth, I have a deep desire to live in a place that reminds me more of nature than humankind’s (maybe not so kind) dominance over it. As a brother, you are caring some of that energy for me, and I cheer on your move for your family and you with, “Paschal Mystery, baby!” The circle of the relationship of birth and death and rebirth, reminds me of the city/culture cycle that inevitably sends us to the country/culture and back again, if we listen to our hearts.
I live on a river and on my morning walk saw a heron perched in a tree above a concrete waterfall and spider’s webs along the bridge guardrail of the bridge and beyond the river running to the Atlantic. Country and city seemed to be imbued in these images.
Happy Trails and I look forward to hearing more.
Thanks for these extremely helpful thoughts, Nick–I am working through these issues and we are, as always, keeping each other company on the journey. I’m still in the middle of my second read of your piece on Carver, Rohr, & co. I will get back to you asap w/ some thoughts on that.
I can tell this was important for you to write. Self-soothing and self-checking, it’s a guidepost and a prophecy. I feel priveleged to read your clarification and statement of purpose and look forward to the next part. Go Peach House!
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